Chlorine is a strong chemical, one that seeps into the nose, the mouth, fills two lungs with unnatural cleanliness. The deep drums in my skull pound and pound, insistent bats pelting at my brain. Pray to God, thank fast for the small relief that at night no one comes to the pool. Ease into the water, guns drawn for the fight against the cold surge, cat claws at my throat. I welcome it and cry, for this will be my end, the finale I envisioned, the path I chose. Then why does my skin curl back into me, madly afraid of the liquid which whispers, sighs of a quick death, no drums, not unhappy?